Let the Journey Begin; Again!

Hello, my name is Staci Petersen and I'm addicted to food. Especially sugar! The first step is to admit we have a problem. My problem is evident to all who see me. I've never met a cookie I didn't like, creamy dips with chips, popcorn, my love for popcorn runs deep; the dripping in butter popcorn you get when you go to the movie theater!

I am a closet eater, I eat when no one is looking and I hide food that I love and don't want to share. I'm ashamed and embarrassed but I have nothing to hide anymore, because you can look at me and know that I enjoy eating. It isn't because, I have big bones, it isn't genetic. (although, I do believe it contributes a little bit, however it isn't the reason for me being 1oo+ lbs overweight) It is plain and simple, I EAT TOO MUCH!!

I know we've all heard the phrase "I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired." Well that is how I feel about my weight. I have been overweight my whole life...I know how much I weighed in the 5th grade 115 lbs, I know my weight in the 8th grade 155 lbs, I know my weight when I graduated high school 175 lbs, I know my weight on my wedding day 203 lbs, and I know my weight when I was 9 months pregnant 233 lbs. And today, I weigh 240 lbs. More than I did 9 months pregnant. The sad thing is, I've lost and gained the same 25-50 lbs at least 5 other times in my life. I can do good for about 90 days at a time and then I just fall back into my old habits.

I was going to lose weight for my wedding, that didn't happen, then I was going to lose weight before we went on the family cruise, that didn't happen. Then I was going to lose weight before I turned 30 I did, I lost about 40 lbs!! Felt great, then we all know what happened...YEP...got pregnant! Then after I had Emily I was going to lose weight to go to Hawaii, that didn't happen either...well you get the picture. I have set all these goals, but yet never really followed through. In fact I started on this journey back in November 2010, I had a trainer and everything, then the holidays came, sickness, and I just starting missing appts with my trainer and I never went back. I lost 25 lbs in 8 weeks with her, I was doing AWESOME. But got easily sidetracked and slipped back into my old ways. That is what is so frustrating...she believed in me and I was doing so well and she said I would be on track to lose 100 lbs in one year. But I lost momentum. Yes, I let life and my sinful desires get in the way of my progress. Which leads us here today to this blog.

I have decided that I want to be physically fit by the time I am 40 years old. I'm not going to put a number on it, although I do have one in mind (135 lbs I think I skipped right over the 130's when I was growing up!). This is like the 100th time in my life that I have been down this road, I'm familiar with all the bumps and curves in the road. Hopefully by blogging about my journey it will keep me in check! So put your seatbelt on it's going to be a bumpy ride!! Come journey with me on My Quest to Find My Skinny Genes-or JEANS rather!!